Back

We are back from vacation... back to life... and back to the world of dealing with IF. Unfortunately cycle day 1 showed up yesterday, the day we flew home. Thankfully it could have been worse, because cycle day 2 is generally my heaviest day. Although it wasn't very pleasant having to deal with AF today at summer camp! The only thing worse than dealing with your period while flying is dealing with your period when you can't get to a bathroom. There are times during the day at camp when I'm "stuck" with the kids doing our activity - either indoors or outdoors. My schedule is pretty rigid while I'm teaching, but it actually seems more difficult with camp for some reason. We don't even get a lunch break because we eat with the kids!

Anyways, that being said, I was able to leave an hour early to make my appointment with Dr. L this afternoon. She wanted to see me during cycle days 1-3 this month. There isn't too much to report. We reviewed my bloodwork from 2 cycles ago (since I didn't get any drawn this cycle because we were on vacation) and she is pleased with the levels. She is convinced that the Tamoxifen is "working" and that it is helping my hormones to improve. Although for me there is only one indication of things "working" and clearly I am not pregnant.

We scheduled a sonogram series for this cycle. She is going to do the first one on day 10, one around ovulation and one after ovulation. Hopefully this will give a clearer picture of what's going on. Although she said that even if we learn that my follicles are not rupturing, she doesn't know of any treatment to fix that problem. Great. Let's just hope that's not happening. I'm not exactly sure what we're looking for with this sonogram series, but it makes me feel good to be doing something and perhaps it might reveal some information.

We also discussed using injections. I know that many IF bloggers are using injections and I feel like it's something I should explore. Although I'm not exactly sure what it would be treating. Dr. L seemed to think that I didn't need to pursue this quite yet, but when it was time she would recommend FSH injections during cycle days 3-7 or something like that. Does anyone know much about this? She seemed to think it was a protocol used by IVF docs to help stimulate ovualation.

Oh, she also said that I don't need to worry about getting bloodwork done anymore. (At least for now.) She's convinced that my hormone levels are looking good.

I don't really have many feelings about this appointment one way or another. To be honest it just feels like more of the same. We still don't really understand what my problem is, much less how to solve it. I'm tired of the mystery and confusion. I'm tired of feeling clueless about what is going on in my body. I'm just plain tired of waiting.