Infertility has been keeping me busy lately! I feel like I spent most of the weekend doing something or other related to IF. Overall I am thankful for making some progress, even if it's just a lot of small steps.
First, I had a doctors appointment with Dr. L on Friday afternoon. It was day 3 and I was all psyched up to "demand" more aggressive treatment. I told her that I was ready for injections or something more aggressive. She smiled and said the same thing that she always says, "I know that you want to be pregnant yesterday, but I think we're making good progress." She is convinced that it's just a matter of time and that my hormones are great and overall my cycles are good. She said that it wouldn't be wise (or healthy!) to over stimulate me with more medication than I need. She did concede to giving me the HCG trigger shot. The plan for this month is 40mg of Tamoxifen and the HCG trigger shot. Once I see an LH surge and I think I'm close to ovulating, she will do a sonogram and give me the shot. I feel good about making at least one change!
I have such mixed feelings about my medical treatment. I'm obsessed with trying something new and something more aggressive and yet other times I think, what's the point? It's just not happening. On one hand I think I'm getting really good medical care... and on the other hand I wonder if the doctors really have a clue what is going on. Ugh, it can be so frustrating.
After sitting in DC beltway traffic to get from Fairfax to Silver Spring, I dropped of my prescriptions at the pharmacy and raced home. We had our first appointment with the adoption social worker. I was under the impression this meeting was going to be mostly an introduction to the paperwork. We have been moving along with it as much as we can, but we did have some questions. After going through some of the paperwork logistics, she was jumped right into the personal questions! I was totally unprepared, but maybe that was for the best. I probably would have been really nervous if I knew that was the plan.
Overall I think it went really well. Of course her first question was, "So, why are you adopting?" I looked at my husband and said, "Should I answer?" I began by saying, "Well, we want to have kids..." and then I lost it. I didn't expect to get emotional right off the bat! So my husband had to tell our story and explain how we got to this point. For the most part her questions were as I expected, but so many of them are really hard to answer. How do you put into words what kind of parent you hope to be? How do you clarify just how open you're comfortable being with the birthmother and how you will explain to the child that he/she is adopted? It was a lot to swallow at once.
Thankfully I think we have a great social worker. She seems nice and normal and that she is truly here to help us. Once the paperwork is completed and mailed to the agency, we will set up the last two meetings. She will separate us and interview each of us separately. Also she will interview one of our references. And of course she will inspect the house. I have to keep telling myself - small steps. Just one thing at a time.
So all of that was on Friday. Then of course Saturday morning was our awesome gathering of DC bloggers! I was so encouraged just being with these ladies. I look forward to getting together again - and hopefully we can schedule a regular support group. I'm going to advertise through the archdiocese because I can only imagine how many other women are walking this lonely road.
This coming week we will get our fingerprints done, get the house inspected by the fire department (thankfully we already passed the inspection by the county housing inspector!) and I have my doctor's appointment for the adoption paperwork. I actually have to get an HIV test done. Seriously, I never expected to be doing that!
Small steps. Just one thing at a time.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Amazing Morning with Awesome Ladies
A group of DC bloggers got together for coffee this morning. It was so amazing!! These ladies are so beautiful and wonderful. It was great to meet them and learn more about everyone's IF journey. We could have stayed at Panera all day talking about cycles, nutrition, treatments, doctors, husbands, etc. We are all trying to navigate this crazy road of infertility and it helps so much to know that we are not alone.
I was the first to arrive and I noticed babies everywhere, which is probably not uncommon for a Saturday morning. I thought - oh no, this is not going to be a good atmosphere for us! But once we all arrived and started talking, we didn't even notice anyone else around. One man sitting alone with his computer was pretty close to our table... I wonder what he thought about our conversations! We were not shy and discussed everything you can imagine about infertility very openly.
I am so grateful to God for the support I have found through the blogging world. You ladies have been such a huge source of encouragement for me. As I looked around the table this morning, my heart was so sad. As I looked into the faces of these women I know that they have experienced all the pain and sadness and frustration that I have. I know that they have felt alone and abandoned. I know that they wonder when and how their situation will ever change.
And although nothing about our situations changed this morning, it helps so much to know that we are supported by other women walking this road. I am so excited for our group to meet again and to form a real support group.
Thank you ladies for our time together!
I was the first to arrive and I noticed babies everywhere, which is probably not uncommon for a Saturday morning. I thought - oh no, this is not going to be a good atmosphere for us! But once we all arrived and started talking, we didn't even notice anyone else around. One man sitting alone with his computer was pretty close to our table... I wonder what he thought about our conversations! We were not shy and discussed everything you can imagine about infertility very openly.
I am so grateful to God for the support I have found through the blogging world. You ladies have been such a huge source of encouragement for me. As I looked around the table this morning, my heart was so sad. As I looked into the faces of these women I know that they have experienced all the pain and sadness and frustration that I have. I know that they have felt alone and abandoned. I know that they wonder when and how their situation will ever change.
And although nothing about our situations changed this morning, it helps so much to know that we are supported by other women walking this road. I am so excited for our group to meet again and to form a real support group.
Thank you ladies for our time together!
Friday, August 28, 2009
Time and Waiting
I have been struck by various songs and reflections and passages on time and waiting recently.
It started when I received an awesome package in the mail from a lovely blogger friend a couple of days ago. She sent me a book and a CD - both on the subjects of waiting. I have been listening to the CD non-stop. Music really speaks to me and I usually find my deepest moments of communion with God through song. The words of these songs really struck me to the core. One song - Silence by Joy Williams - talks about how God sometimes answers our prayers with silence. She sings of how she will be faithful to God and trust during this time of silence. Man, that is exactly how I feel. I was so overwhelmed by these words that I just sobbed in my car as I drove to school. These kind of tears are not sorrowful for me, they are a very deep connection to the Lord. It's when I am most raw and open and honest with Him. I'm not crying out in anger, but in faith and in surrender. I'm not sure if that makes sense, but that is how it feels to me.
Shortly after I came across this:
You have kept a record of my tears; are they not written in your book? Psalm 56:9
And then this from one of my favorites:
Thus says the Lord, cease your cries of mourning, wipe the tears from your eyes. The sorrow you have shown shall have its reward, says the Lord. There is hope for your future, says the Lord. Jeremiah 31:16-17
Both of these were in the Magnificat prayers for the feast of St. Monica. She who prayed and cried and prayed and cried for her son. Have we not done the same for our future children? I felt compelled to pray for her intercession. Look at how her perseverance paid off? Our Church would be very different without St. Augustine and his contributions.
Then, the meditation for the day was about the Gospel passage - how we must stay awake and wait for the Lord, for we do not know when he will come. Time is a funny thing, because it exists only for us. God Himself exists outside of time, and yet He chose to enter our world and our time. The reflection says,
"Time is meant to awaken, intensify and deepen our longing." (Obviously this refers to our longing for the Lord - but to me it also speaks to our longing for a child.) "Time makes us humble before God. First he purifies our all-too-impetuous enthusiasm, then he gradually brings us back to what is fundamental: the passionate but peaceful waiting for him whom we love and who awaits us even more than we can ever await him... God is greater than time, greater also than our waiting, just as he is greater than our own heart."
Wow. How great is that? And then, just when I thought I couldn't handle any more, today's Gospel was more about waiting on the Lord and being prepared for His arrival. The writing of St. Augustine was used in today's meditation. He says,
"Faith is the ground of things hoped for, the conviction of things which cannot be seen. When you hope, you don't yet have what you are hoping for, but by believing it you resemble someone who does possess it... The reason faith is greatly rewarded is that it doesn't see, and yet believes. If it could see, what reward would there be? What you want has its price... if you shirk the hard work of the journey, how can you expect the joy of possession?"
These passages are so rich! I need to sit with them even more. I hope it gives you some food for thought too.
You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our hearts are restless until they rest in you.
-St. Augustine
It started when I received an awesome package in the mail from a lovely blogger friend a couple of days ago. She sent me a book and a CD - both on the subjects of waiting. I have been listening to the CD non-stop. Music really speaks to me and I usually find my deepest moments of communion with God through song. The words of these songs really struck me to the core. One song - Silence by Joy Williams - talks about how God sometimes answers our prayers with silence. She sings of how she will be faithful to God and trust during this time of silence. Man, that is exactly how I feel. I was so overwhelmed by these words that I just sobbed in my car as I drove to school. These kind of tears are not sorrowful for me, they are a very deep connection to the Lord. It's when I am most raw and open and honest with Him. I'm not crying out in anger, but in faith and in surrender. I'm not sure if that makes sense, but that is how it feels to me.
Shortly after I came across this:
You have kept a record of my tears; are they not written in your book? Psalm 56:9
And then this from one of my favorites:
Thus says the Lord, cease your cries of mourning, wipe the tears from your eyes. The sorrow you have shown shall have its reward, says the Lord. There is hope for your future, says the Lord. Jeremiah 31:16-17
Both of these were in the Magnificat prayers for the feast of St. Monica. She who prayed and cried and prayed and cried for her son. Have we not done the same for our future children? I felt compelled to pray for her intercession. Look at how her perseverance paid off? Our Church would be very different without St. Augustine and his contributions.
Then, the meditation for the day was about the Gospel passage - how we must stay awake and wait for the Lord, for we do not know when he will come. Time is a funny thing, because it exists only for us. God Himself exists outside of time, and yet He chose to enter our world and our time. The reflection says,
"Time is meant to awaken, intensify and deepen our longing." (Obviously this refers to our longing for the Lord - but to me it also speaks to our longing for a child.) "Time makes us humble before God. First he purifies our all-too-impetuous enthusiasm, then he gradually brings us back to what is fundamental: the passionate but peaceful waiting for him whom we love and who awaits us even more than we can ever await him... God is greater than time, greater also than our waiting, just as he is greater than our own heart."
Wow. How great is that? And then, just when I thought I couldn't handle any more, today's Gospel was more about waiting on the Lord and being prepared for His arrival. The writing of St. Augustine was used in today's meditation. He says,
"Faith is the ground of things hoped for, the conviction of things which cannot be seen. When you hope, you don't yet have what you are hoping for, but by believing it you resemble someone who does possess it... The reason faith is greatly rewarded is that it doesn't see, and yet believes. If it could see, what reward would there be? What you want has its price... if you shirk the hard work of the journey, how can you expect the joy of possession?"
These passages are so rich! I need to sit with them even more. I hope it gives you some food for thought too.
You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our hearts are restless until they rest in you.
-St. Augustine
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Back to School
I have to admit, I don't mind being back to school! Check in with me in a couple of months to see if I'm still feeling the same. :) So far we've had two days of teacher meetings. The students don't arrive until the day after labor day, so we have plenty of time to get ready. I'm hoping to get extra organized this year!
We've been keeping very busy with our homestudy paperwork. It's like a full-time job getting everything together. Thankfully I've gotten some good advice from all the ladies who have already been down this road. When I start to feel stressed or overwhelmed or just annoyed, I remind myself that it's a means to an end. This process is demanding in so many ways, I will be glad to get through it. Tomorrow morning the county housing inspector is coming and I am praying that we pass! My hubby has a few concerns about our house, but I'm hoping it's not a big deal. Friday evening we will meet with the social worker for the first time. I am anxious to meet her and make sure we're doing everything correctly.
Last but not least, I'm excited about meeting more blog ladies this Saturday morning for coffee! I've been trying to get an Infertility Support Group going here in DC, but it's taking longer than I thought. We're going to meet at Panera and just chat. I'm really looking forward to it! I know we'll have plenty to discuss.
We've been keeping very busy with our homestudy paperwork. It's like a full-time job getting everything together. Thankfully I've gotten some good advice from all the ladies who have already been down this road. When I start to feel stressed or overwhelmed or just annoyed, I remind myself that it's a means to an end. This process is demanding in so many ways, I will be glad to get through it. Tomorrow morning the county housing inspector is coming and I am praying that we pass! My hubby has a few concerns about our house, but I'm hoping it's not a big deal. Friday evening we will meet with the social worker for the first time. I am anxious to meet her and make sure we're doing everything correctly.
Last but not least, I'm excited about meeting more blog ladies this Saturday morning for coffee! I've been trying to get an Infertility Support Group going here in DC, but it's taking longer than I thought. We're going to meet at Panera and just chat. I'm really looking forward to it! I know we'll have plenty to discuss.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
End of Summer
It is officially the end of summer. This is my last week working at summer camp and I have to be at school on Monday for our week of teacher meetings. I have to admit, I'm ready for school to start! A friend told me that is a sign that you are meant to be a teacher - if you get excited for school to start each year.
I sorta fell into teaching... it's not as if I knew my whole life that's what I wanted to be. But I do think it's the right job for me. I love teaching and I actually enjoy what I do. I know not everyone can say that, so I am grateful to God for this gift.
I am such a nerd. I get SO EXCITED about new school supplies and everything that comes along with a new school year. It's great to have a fresh start every year - new students, new goals, new ideas. This week I went to the teacher store and got my new planner. I went home and filled in all the dates for the entire school year! I actually look forward to doing that every year. :)
Of course I have to admit that while I was filling in dates for 2010 my mind couldn't help but wonder, "Will I be pregnant by then? Surely something must be different in our situation by then, right?" But the sad reality is that I don't know that for sure. I have had these same thoughts every year when the new school year starts. "Will this be my last year?" When we got married, the "plan" was for me to teach for one year, then get pregnant and quit my job. Now I'm starting my 5th year teaching. Wow, sometimes I still can't believe how much time has gone by.
Anyways, all that being said, I am still looking forward to the new school year. I am very ready to be done with my camp job (the heat and humidity finally arrived in August and it's been brutal outside.) I do much better with a schedule and a routine. In addition to setting new goals for my teaching, I end up setting new personal goals too during this time of the year. I'm hoping to get back into a better routine spiritually, physically and mentally. I'm also trying to get my life and my house better organized!
All in all I've had a great summer and I pray for God's blessing on this new school year.
I sorta fell into teaching... it's not as if I knew my whole life that's what I wanted to be. But I do think it's the right job for me. I love teaching and I actually enjoy what I do. I know not everyone can say that, so I am grateful to God for this gift.
I am such a nerd. I get SO EXCITED about new school supplies and everything that comes along with a new school year. It's great to have a fresh start every year - new students, new goals, new ideas. This week I went to the teacher store and got my new planner. I went home and filled in all the dates for the entire school year! I actually look forward to doing that every year. :)
Of course I have to admit that while I was filling in dates for 2010 my mind couldn't help but wonder, "Will I be pregnant by then? Surely something must be different in our situation by then, right?" But the sad reality is that I don't know that for sure. I have had these same thoughts every year when the new school year starts. "Will this be my last year?" When we got married, the "plan" was for me to teach for one year, then get pregnant and quit my job. Now I'm starting my 5th year teaching. Wow, sometimes I still can't believe how much time has gone by.
Anyways, all that being said, I am still looking forward to the new school year. I am very ready to be done with my camp job (the heat and humidity finally arrived in August and it's been brutal outside.) I do much better with a schedule and a routine. In addition to setting new goals for my teaching, I end up setting new personal goals too during this time of the year. I'm hoping to get back into a better routine spiritually, physically and mentally. I'm also trying to get my life and my house better organized!
All in all I've had a great summer and I pray for God's blessing on this new school year.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
This 'n That
I've got a little of this and a little of that going on these days. Overall I would say that my life is pretty busy, and usually I like it that way. Busy = distracted. Although IF is never really far from my mind.
This morning we went golfing with our friends and then went to brunch. It was so fun! We golfed at Hains Point (overlooking the Potomac River) and it was a pretty easy course. Since I'm still a beginner, I'm always pleased to just NOT embarass myself. We had an early tee time and made it to brunch by 10:30. It was a fun morning and great to spend time with our friends.
I'm hoping to relax for the afternoon, even though I have a ton of things I could be doing. I'm singing for Mass tonight and another tomorrow morning. We've also got youth group tomorrow night and our new sofa is being delivered sometime during the day. That pretty much takes care of the weekend!
I began going through our homestudy paperwork last night. It's pretty daunting to look at how much needs to be done. Especially since we haven't met with our social worker yet. But I'm hoping to get started on a few things. I mailed the paperwork to our references today, so at least I can say I've done one thing!
I will probably get my blood drawn on peak+7 this cycle to just see what my hormone levels are doing. I was supposed to last cycle, but we were in California and the lab was closed on the day I needed it. I'm trying to formulate a "plan" for my next doctor's appointment. I am ready to try something new and more aggressive - like injections - if Dr. L thinks it is a good idea. I struggle with just sticking with the plan she has in mind (waiting!) and coming up with ideas for a new treatment. I am convinced that we all need to be our own advocate, so I don't really mind pushing my ideas too much.
This morning we went golfing with our friends and then went to brunch. It was so fun! We golfed at Hains Point (overlooking the Potomac River) and it was a pretty easy course. Since I'm still a beginner, I'm always pleased to just NOT embarass myself. We had an early tee time and made it to brunch by 10:30. It was a fun morning and great to spend time with our friends.
I'm hoping to relax for the afternoon, even though I have a ton of things I could be doing. I'm singing for Mass tonight and another tomorrow morning. We've also got youth group tomorrow night and our new sofa is being delivered sometime during the day. That pretty much takes care of the weekend!
I began going through our homestudy paperwork last night. It's pretty daunting to look at how much needs to be done. Especially since we haven't met with our social worker yet. But I'm hoping to get started on a few things. I mailed the paperwork to our references today, so at least I can say I've done one thing!
I will probably get my blood drawn on peak+7 this cycle to just see what my hormone levels are doing. I was supposed to last cycle, but we were in California and the lab was closed on the day I needed it. I'm trying to formulate a "plan" for my next doctor's appointment. I am ready to try something new and more aggressive - like injections - if Dr. L thinks it is a good idea. I struggle with just sticking with the plan she has in mind (waiting!) and coming up with ideas for a new treatment. I am convinced that we all need to be our own advocate, so I don't really mind pushing my ideas too much.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
California Pics
Here are a few pictures from our California trip. We took over 500! Don't worry, I've only posted a few here. We spent two days in Sequoia and Kings Canyon and the rest of the week in Yosemite.
The view from the top of Nevada Falls
Hiking in Tuolumne Meadows
Amazing view of Yosemite Valley
Me and Dad at the river in Kings Canyon
Mirror Lake
Breath-taking view of Half Dome from Glacier Point
The family at Glacier Point
Me in front of El Capitan (it is three times taller than the Empire State building!)
Vernal Falls
Nevada Falls
Four Mike Hike down from Glacier Point to the Valley
View looking down Nevada Falls into the Merced River
Mom and Dad being silly in front of the huge Sequoia tree
General Sherman Tree - largest living thing on earth
Hanging out in the trunk
Crazy BIG Sequoia tree
Bear!
The view from the top of Nevada Falls
Hiking in Tuolumne Meadows
Amazing view of Yosemite Valley
Me and Dad at the river in Kings Canyon
Mirror Lake
Breath-taking view of Half Dome from Glacier Point
The family at Glacier Point
Me in front of El Capitan (it is three times taller than the Empire State building!)
Vernal Falls
Nevada Falls
Four Mike Hike down from Glacier Point to the Valley
View looking down Nevada Falls into the Merced River
Mom and Dad being silly in front of the huge Sequoia tree
General Sherman Tree - largest living thing on earth
Hanging out in the trunk
Crazy BIG Sequoia tree
Bear!
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
There's No Place Like Home
I had a great two weeks at home in California! But it's always great to get back home to my life here in Maryland. Where is my home? Home is where the heart is, right? :)
This might seem like a really strange tangent, but I noticed that I kept using the word home to refer to both places - where I grew up and where I live now. I guess it's just another part of life and getting older. My hubby and I are both transplants, so we hold the places where we grew up in a special place since we are far from them now. And yet, we are a family now and this is our home - mortgage payment and all!
It ends up being an emotional time for me when I'm back in California... I end up remembering the past, reconnecting with friends and family, and feeling a kind of tug-of-war with my emotions. But after living here for 8 years it doesn't take long for me to get back into the swing of things. We love our life here and know that this is where God has called us to be.
Of course infertility plays a big part in this emotional rollar-coaster. Reconnecting with people and getting caught up on everyone's lives forces me to confront my infertility in a big way. The passing of time is thrown in my face and I end up answering the question, "So what's going on with you?" about a million times. How can I stay positive when answering this question? I don't necessarily want to get into how I'm really feeling each and every time. And yet I can't deny the truth. It's hard to chit-chat about my job(s) and other things in life when really this cloud of infertility is shadowing everything.
Well, I didn't mean for this to become a downer post. For the most part I had an amazing two weeks! I promise to post pictures soon from our incredible week in Yosemite, Sequoia and Kings Canyon. They have to be some of the most beautiful places in the world! Thank God everything went well with our travels (except for my brother's car breaking down on the way back. Poor guy!) Then I was able to spend another week at my parent's house. I'm so thankful for this time. It's good for my soul to just get away and be in a different place.
Nothing new to report in cycle news. I think I'm on cycle day 11, so I'm starting to look for my O day. I've pretty much given up on charting - which feels freeing in a way! I'm not sure what will be next for me in terms of treatment. I feel like I need to bring suggestions to Dr. L next time I meet with her - but I don't know what to ask for. I would love for her to be more aggressive and suggest something new. But she is content to just wait. She seems to think our plan is "working" and it's only a matter of time. It's hard for me to feel the same way.
We got our HUGE adoption paperwork packet, so now that is hanging over our heads. Now that we're back from vacation we need to schedule our first meeting with the social worker. It feels good to be moving forward with the homestudy process, even though we're not sure what we're going to do once we're homestudy-approved. We will work on this part first, and then decide which agency to go with after that.
I've got two more weeks of summer camp and then school starts. Where did the summer go???
Oh, and one last comment. Did anyone see "Julie and Julia"? I went with my mom and thought it was super cute! I had to laugh at all the references to blogging. It made me think of you all. And there was once very poignant scene that deal with IF. It caught me totally off guard. But overall I thought the movie was adorable!
This might seem like a really strange tangent, but I noticed that I kept using the word home to refer to both places - where I grew up and where I live now. I guess it's just another part of life and getting older. My hubby and I are both transplants, so we hold the places where we grew up in a special place since we are far from them now. And yet, we are a family now and this is our home - mortgage payment and all!
It ends up being an emotional time for me when I'm back in California... I end up remembering the past, reconnecting with friends and family, and feeling a kind of tug-of-war with my emotions. But after living here for 8 years it doesn't take long for me to get back into the swing of things. We love our life here and know that this is where God has called us to be.
Of course infertility plays a big part in this emotional rollar-coaster. Reconnecting with people and getting caught up on everyone's lives forces me to confront my infertility in a big way. The passing of time is thrown in my face and I end up answering the question, "So what's going on with you?" about a million times. How can I stay positive when answering this question? I don't necessarily want to get into how I'm really feeling each and every time. And yet I can't deny the truth. It's hard to chit-chat about my job(s) and other things in life when really this cloud of infertility is shadowing everything.
Well, I didn't mean for this to become a downer post. For the most part I had an amazing two weeks! I promise to post pictures soon from our incredible week in Yosemite, Sequoia and Kings Canyon. They have to be some of the most beautiful places in the world! Thank God everything went well with our travels (except for my brother's car breaking down on the way back. Poor guy!) Then I was able to spend another week at my parent's house. I'm so thankful for this time. It's good for my soul to just get away and be in a different place.
Nothing new to report in cycle news. I think I'm on cycle day 11, so I'm starting to look for my O day. I've pretty much given up on charting - which feels freeing in a way! I'm not sure what will be next for me in terms of treatment. I feel like I need to bring suggestions to Dr. L next time I meet with her - but I don't know what to ask for. I would love for her to be more aggressive and suggest something new. But she is content to just wait. She seems to think our plan is "working" and it's only a matter of time. It's hard for me to feel the same way.
We got our HUGE adoption paperwork packet, so now that is hanging over our heads. Now that we're back from vacation we need to schedule our first meeting with the social worker. It feels good to be moving forward with the homestudy process, even though we're not sure what we're going to do once we're homestudy-approved. We will work on this part first, and then decide which agency to go with after that.
I've got two more weeks of summer camp and then school starts. Where did the summer go???
Oh, and one last comment. Did anyone see "Julie and Julia"? I went with my mom and thought it was super cute! I had to laugh at all the references to blogging. It made me think of you all. And there was once very poignant scene that deal with IF. It caught me totally off guard. But overall I thought the movie was adorable!
Friday, August 7, 2009
Paradise
I'm trying to spend as much time as possible relaxing in my parents backyard... why didn't I appreciate this place when I was growing up??? Such is life. :)
Busy Week in California
I thought I would have updated my blog by now... but it's been a busy week. I'm trying to catch up with friends and family, and also just relax around the house with my parents. So far it's been great, although my time is slipping away. Then again I don't like being apart from my hubby... so I will be glad to get back to home with him!
Today I caught up with some friends, had lunch with my mom, made raspberry jam and went to a concert in the park! Yesterday I was at Disneyland. The day before I splurged on a mani/pedi and then went to dinner on the beach with my parents. Tomorrow I'm going to sort through some of my old stuff (mostly pictures) still left here at my parents house. How many of you still have things at your parents' homes? It's hard to bring things back and forth when I'm flying, but somehow it works.
I'll be heading back to reality on Saturday. This time away has been great in a lot of ways and I truly feel like I'm in a different world when I'm here. I wish I could take a vacation from IF, but of course that's not possible. I started my new cycle when we were in Yosemite... right when we were doing an all-day hike. Doesn't get better than that, does it??? I called my doctor's office and was able to get my Tamoxifen prescription faxed to the local pharmacy here. Ugh. Another new cycle. I'm so tired of this whole thing. I haven't charted for two cycles now (besides finding my O day.) I'm just over it and ready for a break.
On a positive note, I'll leave you with a few pics from this week...
I went to Disneyland with my sister in law. It was so fun!
My mom and my brother's dog Chelsea.
Here are the jars of raspberry jam that we canned.
Today I caught up with some friends, had lunch with my mom, made raspberry jam and went to a concert in the park! Yesterday I was at Disneyland. The day before I splurged on a mani/pedi and then went to dinner on the beach with my parents. Tomorrow I'm going to sort through some of my old stuff (mostly pictures) still left here at my parents house. How many of you still have things at your parents' homes? It's hard to bring things back and forth when I'm flying, but somehow it works.
I'll be heading back to reality on Saturday. This time away has been great in a lot of ways and I truly feel like I'm in a different world when I'm here. I wish I could take a vacation from IF, but of course that's not possible. I started my new cycle when we were in Yosemite... right when we were doing an all-day hike. Doesn't get better than that, does it??? I called my doctor's office and was able to get my Tamoxifen prescription faxed to the local pharmacy here. Ugh. Another new cycle. I'm so tired of this whole thing. I haven't charted for two cycles now (besides finding my O day.) I'm just over it and ready for a break.
On a positive note, I'll leave you with a few pics from this week...
I went to Disneyland with my sister in law. It was so fun!
My mom and my brother's dog Chelsea.
Here are the jars of raspberry jam that we canned.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Back
I'm back! Well, not completely, but I'm back from our adventure-road-trip to Sequoia and Yosemite. We had a great time visiting these beautiful places and of course I'll post some pictures soon. ;) Thankfully everyone got along and we had a wonderful time together. My in-laws flew home yesterday and my hubby is flying back this morning. I will stay here in California for the rest of the week just hanging out with my family and getting together with friends. Now I'm going to catch up on what's been going on in blog-world!
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