New Cycle

Things have gotten pretty busy around here for me. Thankfully I survived the camping trip with my students. I don't know if I mentioned this before, but I actually volunteered to go on the trip. I've done it for the past three years and I really don't mind it. My hubby and I love to camp and hike and do things outdoors. But of course it's always different when it involves sixty 5th and 6th graders! Overall everything went really well - considering that in years past we have had to send kids home because of injuries, fighting and homesickness. This year was pretty mellow. Our only trouble was the weather. It was pretty chilly and rainy. Unfortunately the worst weather was on our rafting day. It's not quite as exciting to jump in the river when it's 62 degrees and raining. But we did it and the kids had a blast. My shower on Friday night was so amazing after all that time outside.

Yesterday we had friends over to watch football. We had a great time with our friends, but both USC and Nebraska lost heart-breaking games. I can't really talk about it... we were both really bummed out. I did use my Nebraska-shaped cookie cutter, which I don't always have the opportunity to do. Here are the cookies I made!


To add to the disappointment I started a new cycle last night. Oh joy. I knew it was coming, but that doesn't make it any easier. I will call Dr. L tomorrow to see about my Tamoxifen prescription and to see about trying the HCG trigger shot since it didn't work out last time. I don't even know what to say anymore about my cycles. I almost feel numb. I don't really have any expectations and therefore I'm not surprised when I get my period. I guess it's a way to protect my heart - in a way I pretend that I don't really care, when obviously I do. It's depressing to realize how the time continues to fly by. There are things that I am looking forward to... my birthday party next month, we've already made our Thanksgiving and Christmas plans with family, our trip in the spring, etc. But it saddens me to think that most likely, our situation won't have changed at all. We are moving along with the adoption paperwork - just a few things left to complete. But that is also a disheartening subject considering the long expected wait.

I started a new book today on the Discernments of Spirits. So far it has been really good. I hope that I can stick with it and that it will help me. It's based on the writings of St. Ignatius of Loyola and the goal is to help you distinguish between what is from God and what is not. I definitely could use some help with that. I will keep you posted!

Oh, and last but not least this week is my one-year blog anniversary! I will have to think of something good for that post. I am so thankful for you all and you continue to be in my daily prayers.