Feeling Good

I had my last appointment with my doctor today before the surgery. It was pretty quick and basically I just had to fill out some paperwork. She gave me some more details about the day of surgery and I scheduled my post-op appointment for two weeks after the surgery. I'm feeling really good about it all and I'm so THANKful that it's all set for next week. Oh, and no bowel prep for me! Just fasting from food/water after midnight. :)

Now that I have stopped stressing about the surgery date, I have started to think the possible results. It's only by God's grace that I haven't been consumed with obsessive thoughts this whole time! (Plus being super busy helps too.) Now I'm starting to think about all the "what ifs." What if they don't find any endo? What does that mean for us? What will we do next? What the HECK is wrong with me???? My ideal situation would be mild endo that is treatable - enough that has caused my infertility but mild enough to be "fixed." I really really hope this will be the case. But obviously I have no way of knowing. I just don't know what to think...

I'm not too nervous for the procedure itself. I know many of you have had this done - plus much more invasive surgery! But it is a little weird to think about being put to sleep and having someone inside my body. I've never had surgery before, never been in the hospital, never even broken a bone! So all of this is new to me. I'm not sure what to expect for recovery and how it will feel afterwards. I'm taking Thursday and Friday off from school. I figure I'll be feeling ok by Monday to go back.

After my appointment this morning I had lunch with a priest friend of ours, Msgr. P. It turned into me having lunch with three priests, which was pretty funny! Msgr. P works for the Archdiocese, so I met him at his office and the other priests ended up joining us. It was nice to catch up with Msgr - he was my spiritual director for a couple of years and he was one of the priests at our wedding. I have been so blessed with great spiritual leaders in my life. I don't take it for granted and I am so grateful for their gift of support and encouragement.

Sew Infertile - you will appreciate this - I went to the Shrine today and I thought of you! I had some time to kill between my doctor's appointment and lunch. My goal was to do a little shopping in the bookstore and do a little praying in the beautiful crypt chapel. Unfortunately I didn't end up getting much praying done! The bookstore/giftshop is so amazing there... they have the best religious gifts and I can't pull myself away from it all. I ended up with some nice Christmas gifts and some good stuff for my classroom. I had to settle for a quick prayer before I dashed off to lunch. :)